Well, what a weekend. I applied for my credential so I can feel that job right around the corner. Being patient is not my stongest attribute. I decided to be good and go with the "the outcome is already planned, and nothing I do is going to change that so just wait" approach. For the most part, it is working well. I know God has a plan for me and I just have to watch it unfold. At the moment I am thinking that it had something to do with my grandmother. For about a year she was very ill and we all knew that there would not be much time left with her but we all kept putting off going down to visit or making those "hi, how are you" phone calls. Well, because I was not working, I was able to go down and spend a couple of days with her right after New Years. She was in the hospital so we didn't do anything really fun but I was with her and we just sat together and talked. I wouldn't have been able to do that if I had a full-time job. I got to tell her that I loved her. That was the most important part of the trip. This brave, outgoing, vibrant, funny, loving woman passed away this weekend and it sucks! So, becuase I don't have a job, I was able to be there for my mom in ways that I wouldn't have if I had to leave work. We are headed down today to clean out the house (this is the house that my mom and her sisters grew up in so that makes it even more sad) and to tie up any loose ends. For a while there I was cursing God becuase I didn't have a job or even a job prospect. Of course, now I feel silly for that becuase He knows what He is doing. I have praised Him over and over that I was able to spend time with her and my mom. I have praise Him becuase, in the end, she did not suffer and the room was full of family. I praise Him most of all becuase she was a Christian and I know she is with Him now. The strange thing is, that is the first grandparent I have that was a Christian and I feel more settled with this one than I did with the others. I have no doubts that she is in a better place, free from pain and suffering. Wow, what a feeling.
In loving memory of Betty Jean Bush -- June 26, 1922 - January 26, 2007
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Wow--what a great post about God's timing and our trust. You are so very much in my thoughts and prayers. I love that He is already giving you a place of rest about this--you will probably be a wonderful help to everyone as they walk through this. I am sure there will be plenty of tears for you, but how wonderful to have hope, too!
Love you.
What a week! You are the second friend that has lost a loved one. Both of you are Christians dealing with the loss of another Christian. What a difference that grief, in these instances, while painful is not crushing. What amazing grace to grieve with hope!
I love and miss you and wish I could be there to hug the stuffing out of you. Know you are never far from my thoughts and prayers. Grace and peace to you and your family during this time dear one.
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